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It is ok

 Hai,

It's been a long time, right?

Umm, im kinda feel sad tonight. 

So this letter is from me to myself, but don't worry, this letter is for you too.

I really want to write some sad quotes, but, nah i don't think it's a good idea. But, let me see..

Oke, im gonna start now.

 

How are you? How's your feelings? Are you ok?

It's a simple question, i know. But, can you give me the answer? Can you give me the real answer? Do not fake your answer. Hmm, i know. If you feel you're not, it's ok. Cause, me too. Someone said it is ok to not be ok, so yeah i guess it is fine. 

I posted 3 twit on my twitter today. I think it is fine to write about my feelings on my twitter, but then.. 5 mins later i deleted it. I don't know.. i just feel uncomfortable to share it. Although, i really want to share it, but i can't. Or maybe all i want is not to share what i've been through? Maybe I just want a hug? Yeah, I admited.

I need a hug, i need someone to stay, to support me, to tell me that 'Hei, i know this day is suck, but everything's gonna be alright. I'm here.' or maybe to say "Hei, it is ok to not be ok." or maybe.. "It's ok if you wanna cry." or maybe this "Do you need my shoulder?".

 Ok, forget about that. 

You know? I've ever asked "Why do i always feel lonely and i feel like there's nobody wanna be my friend?". And, i found the answer that really help me, she said that "It is ok if you feel like that, but remember there's someone who always be your friend, and it's yourself. 

Yeah, i know it sounds weird, but it's really work on me. I realize that i never make peace with myself, with my past. I never accept who i really am. And from that, i'm trying to make a peace with myself, i'm trying to accept who i really am. And yeah, now i can make a friend with myself.

I admited that it's really hard for me, it takes a loooong time. But, it's worth. 

Sometimes, i still feel a lil bit lonely, but.. i guess i can handle it now.

Hei,

If one day, you've felt this again, come here.

I'm gonna tell you, that you've passed it once. And i trust you that you can passed what you've just felt right now. Don't worry, come here, i'm gonna tell you that it is ok to not be ok. Just feel it for a while and i beg you, you can pass it. Lemme hug you<3



 



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